I don't even know what to write. Nothing exists in my head. I don't write because there's nothing to write.
Every day is the same, every day I do nothing.
My mind holds no information. Thoughts circle constantly, never leaving me in peace but nothing sticks.
I study, I read two paragraphs and I've forgotten what subject I'm doing. I watch a movie and it doesn't make sense because I can't remember the beginning.
I don't whether it's the meds or something else - I don't care.
Nothing is coming together, nothing is different, except that it doesn't matter anymore. I'm not happy, I'm not sad, I'm not numb, I'm not anything. I barely am.
I count hours, that is all I do.